Pressured

I've only been back here for 3 days and all I feel is the massive amount of pressure. Like 999999999 psi kind of pressure seriously.

These are the list of things that are yet to be completed:

1. Chemistry Activity 2

2. Chemistry Homework (like, seriously?!!)

3. Chemistry tutorial

4. Process Engineering & Analysis Homework

5. The other half of Process Principles tutorial

6. Thermodynamics tutorial

And guess what, IT'S ONLY THE FIRST WEEK!!

I'm not really a last minute person so I tried really hard to do all of those before the weekends. BUT I COULDN'T BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO FRIGGIN DIFFICULT.

My schedule is like sh*t. 8am classes for 4 days in a week. I couldn't even get a full 8-hours sleep these few days and this makes me so damn stressed out.

Times like this make me wonder if I should give up, or take the pressure, because all I wanna do now is go home :( I know somehow, maybe, probably, that I'm better than a lot of people still, but I know I've ruined myself in the past 2 years. I depended too much on my friends because I knew they will always find a way to solve the problems, to do the tutorials and they could then teach me. And now I'm all alone and I have to find my own way.

I'm trying really really hard to love the things that I'm doing now but why am I still choked up everytime I do those stupid tutorials? :(

Please God, I really need to pull through. I really need the strength and I'm not here to give up cuz I'm here to give my very best.

Love,

Michele