My emo post

I've been pondering. How does it feel like when you enjoy your assignments, all your homework, labs, online quizzes and even exams? Sometimes, I wonder if I'm doing the right course, doing the right thing. Just so you know, there are still people, including some of my closest friends, who dropped their jaws when they heard that I'm currently studying engineering, which is totally UNcool. Does this means that I'm not suitable for this? :(

Sometimes, I feel like blaming it on Foundation. I used to think that if I fail or almost fail my Foundation, I'd probably change my course and stick to my original plan--> Health Science. The thing is, I did pretty well in my Foundation and that leads me thinking that hey, I might just be the next super genius engineer leh!

Nyways, before I proceed, let me explain why I chose engineering instead of health science. You see, I was supposed to go to KL, but my whole family, excluding my mom, forbid me to go. Then, my other options were Masterskill(a super tiny college in Kuching), Form 6 or A-levels. Masterskill is really, REALLY tiny and it is undeniable that it has NO university life at all. Form 6 was worse, I went for two days and the pengawas asked me to wear singlet inside my shirt( WHEN I ALREADY WORE ONE), instructed me to take off my bracelets and necklace. =.= Super duper childish. Then there was A-levels, but A-levels is a kind of expensive thing to me. After that, my cousin told me that Chemical Engineering can earn alot so I thought maybe I could give it a try so I came to Curtin because Angelina was coming too, and it's a blessing for not having to be alone.

Don't get me wrong. I don't hate Curtin. In fact, I really like it here. The campus is a really conducive studying environment, people are all friendly and easygoing and most of the lecturers are good. Plus, the university life here is super duper awesome.

But then, after I've stepped into degree, everything is so friggin difficult. :( None of the subjects is my forte and I have to struggle for almost every single unit. This has led me thinking again. Am I at the right place??

I have a friend who changed his course after studying a year of engineering. According to his blog, he absolutely loves his new course although it is hectic. How I wish I could be like him, to like everything that he does, including assignments that students would give anything to not do them. I envy him. :( Sigh

What a lengthy, boring post. Sorry. I guess it's a lousy try for emo post eh?

Michele is demi-semi-depressed. Just hope that I wouldn't give up.

Oh well, I'm going back Kuching for a 10-day holiday in 16 days. Can't wait. :)

Kuching peeps, I look forward to see you!! :))

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