Things to do before I marry

I've been thinking a lot about the things I would really want to do before I die, or before I settle down to become a good wife and mother, IF I do marry. Lol. Turning 21 this year, regrets in life is no longer an option. So, I actually came up with a list for myself:

1. Tour in Europe.  Like seriously, how can you resist?

2. Visit Tomorrowland, Belgium. If you haven't already know what it is, click here. I'm easily hyped up.
3. Go for invisalign treatment. I don't have perfectly straight teeth and I hate braces.
4. Lasik eye surgery. I'm tired of wearing contact lenses and glasses.
5. Graduate from university on time, with honors. This is pretty serious stuff.
6. Get a decent-paying job so I can do those things stated above. Hah intense.
7. Learn how to swim. Ok this is embarrassing.

These are only things that I can think of up to date. There may be more as I grow older. Guess the only way for me to achieve those are to pray hard and of course, work hard. Nobody's gonna help me out if I don't help myself. ;)

So do you have dreams yourself? Well stop dreaming, do it! :))

Back to reality. I'm heading to KL tomorrow for MyLDS, an AIESEC conference. It's a little dreadful to stay in KL for two whole weeks, but on the bright side, I am looking forward to the conference. :)

Oh wells, I'll really miss Kuching and the people in it. Til then, bye :)

Post-CNY Syndrome

I do apologize for my 4-month disappearance, but I think nobody cares anyway. Nyways, I am only left with a week to enjoy my last few moments of Kuching, and it always makes my heart twitch a little when this crosses my mind.

Chinese New Year this year, I have to admit, is by far the best one that I've had my entire life. With a little spicing up with my brother's wedding, it is without doubt, truely amazing. I had an incredible time attending big family gatherings and having conversations with cousins that I never really talked to. Sometimes I deem myself to be really dumb, for trying to disconnect with my dear cousins as much as I could, which I still don't really know why I did.

Besides meeting family members, I had a really great time catching-up with my friends. This year, I actually realize that I've grown apart from them, which is a pity. There was one time that I even tried to distance myself, and then blame them for trying to isolate me. I honestly don't really know what was happening to me. Was it PMS? Or just paranoia? Well, whatever it is, it has got to stop like seriously. So, I took Chinese New Year as a time to reconnect with them since they were all home for the celebration. I even took the first step to invite myself to a really close friend's house so I could have a little bonding session with her, and I found out how much that I've missed.

I've actually come to realize the many flaws that I have, and I would definitely like to make a change, for myself and for the people around me. Sometimes you just have to stop worrying and start taking chances and risks. It is always better to say "what-if" now than to say "what-if" when you age. This celebration had taught me so many things, and I can say that I've grown up a little, spiritually.

My family photo! Well, we're all looking at another camera :(

Me, my brother, new sister-in-law and my two dear cousins. Had a wonderful chat with them.

Of course, the lovely gang. :)

The little chicken is about to evolve into a dinosaur, better watch out! 

Toodles, and all the best to your future endeavours, all of you.  Cheers! :)))

Egg tarts

      Hello bello everyone! Sorry for being away for far too long. I've been really busy with my exams and everything. Speaking of exams...I'm really REALLY worried this time. I just hope (fingers crossed) that I can at least pass the papers. Sometimes I just can't believe that I am actually in this pass-or-flunk position. It sucks. Well, am hoping for the best.

      I've been chilling for 2 weeks after the start of my supposedly splendid 4-month semester break. Sounds pretty cool huh, but by chilling, I mean eating, playing with my dog, watching a great deal of SVU, tetris battle and heaploads of sleeping. And those have been going on for two whole weeks. Too much, I'll say. This is probably because most of my closest friends aren't around, and my much anticipated goddess life is slowly walking its way down the drain.

      So I was thinking, why don't I at the very least, try my best to make the best out of it? Which is why my mum and I baked our very first batch of egg tarts! 

      

Golden brown egg tarts, still hot from oven. Yums!

     Dad says they were delicious, but my picky brothers tried to play the food critic role. Annoying much =.= Anyway, more to come, hopefully. =D

     Another goal that I haven't achieved is to learn how to swim. Yes, I can't swim. I went to the pool in my aunt's condo and dipped. DIPPED. Even the kids a quarter of my age swim like mermaids around me, and I dipped. I was the only person in the whole pool who couldn't swim. I wanted to dig a hole and squirm inside. Thing is, when will I ever have the courage to try? I don't know yet. Sigh.

    Truth be told, I kinda miss my girls when we were chit-chatting in Miri. It was just pretty awesome, aye? Well, I will stop boring people for a little while. Tata!

Expressive

His pupils dilate when he sees food. That's how he is. He is by far one of the most expressive "person" I've known in my life.

Little Nicky, almost salivating over the black bean between my fingers.

Sometimes I wonder why people like me cannot be as expressive as dogs. Dogs wag their tails furiously when they are happy to see you. Hide under their sanctuaries when they are afraid. Follow you everywhere when they want your company.

I still lack the nerves to tell the people I love that I love them. Awkward is very much the word to describe how I feel when my mum tells me that she loves and misses me but all I can do was squeaked a "love you too" back, extra small voice.

If you are someone who is not afraid to express your love to your love ones, be proud of yourself. :)

Updates: Busy busy busy with school work. I'm looking forward to my 4-month holiday.

Have a nice day everyone! :)

Always the bad person

Ever wonder how funny things work in this world?

No matter how much you contributed, how much you've worked for something, IF you made the slightest mistake, you'll be the bad person FOREVER. Your contributions will NEVER be appreciated or remembered. Maybe this is how the human brain works. People will always remember the bad side and forget about the good deeds that you've done. It's just like the black dot on the white piece of paper theory. You'll always notice the black dot on a white sheet of paper first, and ignore the white part.

On the other note, females are always considered as the complicated set of creatures. We'll stereotype that guys will not hold grudges as much. After two years in university, I've come to realize that it's not entirely true. Most of the backstabbers and two-faced creatures I met here are guys. Yes. GUYS. MALE. BOYS. MEN. Truth be told, sometimes they do scare me. Their ugly words spread like wild dandelions on a wide windy field, even b*tchy girls can't do better than them.

Lesson learnt? Watch out of the people around you. They might just be the person who's talking bulls behind your back.

Love,

Michele

Pressured

I've only been back here for 3 days and all I feel is the massive amount of pressure. Like 999999999 psi kind of pressure seriously.

These are the list of things that are yet to be completed:

1. Chemistry Activity 2

2. Chemistry Homework (like, seriously?!!)

3. Chemistry tutorial

4. Process Engineering & Analysis Homework

5. The other half of Process Principles tutorial

6. Thermodynamics tutorial

And guess what, IT'S ONLY THE FIRST WEEK!!

I'm not really a last minute person so I tried really hard to do all of those before the weekends. BUT I COULDN'T BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO FRIGGIN DIFFICULT.

My schedule is like sh*t. 8am classes for 4 days in a week. I couldn't even get a full 8-hours sleep these few days and this makes me so damn stressed out.

Times like this make me wonder if I should give up, or take the pressure, because all I wanna do now is go home :( I know somehow, maybe, probably, that I'm better than a lot of people still, but I know I've ruined myself in the past 2 years. I depended too much on my friends because I knew they will always find a way to solve the problems, to do the tutorials and they could then teach me. And now I'm all alone and I have to find my own way.

I'm trying really really hard to love the things that I'm doing now but why am I still choked up everytime I do those stupid tutorials? :(

Please God, I really need to pull through. I really need the strength and I'm not here to give up cuz I'm here to give my very best.

Love,

Michele

Bali Day 4 (Turtle Island)

My last full day in Bali was completed in Turtle Island. We took a half day tour and paid around RM200 per person, lunch included. Our itinerary included snorkeling, Glass Bottom and Turtle Island.

In da boat.

Snorkeling. Mum wore that thingy and STILL breathed using her nose. Talk about LISTENING SKILLS. =.=

Cannot swim. *paiseh* so kept holding on to the red floating life ring.

After that we changed to a boat with a glass bottom. It's basically a boat with a magnifying glass so you can see the corals and fishes underneath.

Fishy fishy.

Finally touched down in Turtle Island. But abit kenak cheated cuz it's not really a "turtle island" They just breed the turtles here and let them grow up. The turtle eggs will remain at the real turtle island to be protected.

60 year old turtle :D Hi uncle, you're as old as my daddy.

An owl which sleeps with one eye open. Somehow I felt that he looked right into my soul when he glanced at me. Freaky

Vegeterian iguana :) I went there for 1 hour and he did not change his position still. His skin felt like a handbag. :s

Baby turtle! He/She (seriously dunno how to differentiate the gender of turtles) has the most amazing deep blue eyes ever if you look really closely, and I dunno why they look so sad :( omg I swear I will never eat turtle eggs again T_____T

Flapping its arms so furiously because he/she was scared of me. So friggin cute!!

Turtle turtle. Wanted to put him in my bag and take him home. -.-

:) And all the Cokes there are still in that bottle. AND taste nicer dunno why. The ones in cans taste bad.

A puff-like thingy with durian cream. RM1 each. Super love! <3

Chilling out at Kuta Beach again.

This probably sums up my Bali trip. You should totally go for a visit :) Seeya~